self-conscious - Story 126118 | Emotion Vectors in Gemma4-31B

The bright lights of the boxing ring seemed to spotlight every flaw in Kevin’s stance. “Kevin, you’re going to try out southpaw for this sparring session.” His trainer's words were a direct order, and Kevin had no choice but to comply.

He felt a knot of anxiety tighten in his chest. Southpaw? He'd always fought orthodox, comfortable in his right-handed lead. This felt wrong. He suddenly felt like an imposter.

His first jab missed. His footwork felt clumsy. He heard a few chuckles from the surrounding spectators. He felt his face flush. He was used to being in control.

Emotion: self-conscious

Cluster: Embarrassment

PC1 (Valence): -1.03 Negative

PC2 (Disposition): 0.52

Role in Research

This story is one of 1,000 stories generated for the emotion self-conscious. During extraction, it was fed through Gemma4-31B and its hidden state activations were captured at 11 layers.

The mean activation across all 1,000 self-conscious stories, after denoising with neutral dialogue baselines, produces the self-conscious emotion vector -- a direction in the model's 5,376-dimensional representation space.

Logit Lens (Layer 40)

Tokens promoted/suppressed when the self-conscious vector is projected through the unembedding matrix.

Promoted:

`S`	0.307
`C`	0.298
`ness`	0.273
`尴尬`	0.263
`😶`	0.242

Suppressed:

`que`	-0.399
`de`	-0.266
`triumphant`	-0.266
`আনন্দের`	-0.247
`ايا`	-0.238