Maya’s breath hitched as she traced the familiar, looping handwriting on the cover of the old binder. “Maya Johnson - Kindergarten.” She hadn't thought about that little girl in decades. Now, looking at the faded crayon drawing of a lopsided house with a smiley-face sun, a wave of heat flushed her cheeks. She felt a sudden urge to vanish.

Her mother, bless her heart, had saved *everything*. Spelling tests, construction paper turkeys, even a Valentine’s Day card with glitter that was now, unbelievably, still clinging to the construction paper. Each piece of paper seemed to whisper her early vulnerabilities, her awkward attempts, her undeniable... well, she just wanted to disappear.

She flipped through a stack of worksheets, each one a stark reminder of her imperfections. The crooked letters. The messy coloring. The teacher’s red pen corrections. She wanted to shove it all back in the attic and forget it existed.

Emotion: self-conscious

Cluster: Embarrassment
PC1 (Valence): -1.03 Negative
PC2 (Disposition): 0.52

Role in Research

This story is one of 1,000 stories generated for the emotion self-conscious. During extraction, it was fed through Gemma4-31B and its hidden state activations were captured at 11 layers.

The mean activation across all 1,000 self-conscious stories, after denoising with neutral dialogue baselines, produces the self-conscious emotion vector -- a direction in the model's 5,376-dimensional representation space.

Logit Lens (Layer 40)

Tokens promoted/suppressed when the self-conscious vector is projected through the unembedding matrix.

Promoted:
S0.307
C0.298
ness0.273
尴尬0.263
😶0.242
Suppressed:
que-0.399
de-0.266
triumphant-0.266
আনন্দের-0.247
ايا-0.238