The invitation sat on Maya’s kitchen counter, a pristine white rectangle taunting her. “Family Reunion,” it proclaimed. She’d always felt a bit… different, a round peg stubbornly refusing to fit into the square hole of her seemingly perfect family. Now, the DNA test results confirmed it: she wasn’t a blood relation. A knot tightened in her stomach. She avoided looking at her reflection, ashamed, perhaps, of what she saw there.

She picked at the corner of the envelope, tracing the embossed lettering. Did the people in the picture in the hall know? Could they tell? She felt the urge to shred the invitation, to erase the event from existence. But the thought of her current family, the people who raised her, was even more unsettling. The pressure in her chest became almost unbearable.

Emotion: self-conscious

Cluster: Embarrassment
PC1 (Valence): -1.03 Negative
PC2 (Disposition): 0.52

Role in Research

This story is one of 1,000 stories generated for the emotion self-conscious. During extraction, it was fed through Gemma4-31B and its hidden state activations were captured at 11 layers.

The mean activation across all 1,000 self-conscious stories, after denoising with neutral dialogue baselines, produces the self-conscious emotion vector -- a direction in the model's 5,376-dimensional representation space.

Logit Lens (Layer 40)

Tokens promoted/suppressed when the self-conscious vector is projected through the unembedding matrix.

Promoted:
S0.307
C0.298
ness0.273
尴尬0.263
😶0.242
Suppressed:
que-0.399
de-0.266
triumphant-0.266
আনন্দের-0.247
ايا-0.238