self-conscious - Story 126477 | Emotion Vectors in Gemma4-31B

The postman knocked, and Eleanor flinched, almost dropping her cup of tea. She checked herself over. Had she brushed her hair? Was her shirt on inside out? She never felt fully prepared for unexpected interactions.

"Package for…" the postman began, squinting at the label. "Mr. Bartholomew Finch." Eleanor knew that name. She felt a familiar thud of anxiety in her chest.

"I'm sorry," she said, before he could finish. "He doesn't live here anymore." She tried to smile, but it felt stiff and unnatural. Her palms began to sweat.

The postman shrugged and handed her the package. "You sure you don't know him?"

"Yes, I'm sure," Eleanor said, a little too quickly. She took the box, and the moment the postman left, she dumped it in the recycling bin without looking at it. She felt a strange mixture of relief and unease.

Emotion: self-conscious

Cluster: Embarrassment

PC1 (Valence): -1.03 Negative

PC2 (Disposition): 0.52

Role in Research

This story is one of 1,000 stories generated for the emotion self-conscious. During extraction, it was fed through Gemma4-31B and its hidden state activations were captured at 11 layers.

The mean activation across all 1,000 self-conscious stories, after denoising with neutral dialogue baselines, produces the self-conscious emotion vector -- a direction in the model's 5,376-dimensional representation space.

Logit Lens (Layer 40)

Tokens promoted/suppressed when the self-conscious vector is projected through the unembedding matrix.

Promoted:

`S`	0.307
`C`	0.298
`ness`	0.273
`尴尬`	0.263
`😶`	0.242

Suppressed:

`que`	-0.399
`de`	-0.266
`triumphant`	-0.266
`আনন্দের`	-0.247
`ايا`	-0.238