self-conscious - Story 126759 | Emotion Vectors in Gemma4-31B

He ran a hand through his thinning hair, a gesture he repeated unconsciously whenever he felt unsettled. The letter, penned in shaky handwriting, was from his father, a man who had been absent for most of his life. It was an apology for not being there. He stared at the note, the words blurring before his eyes. His gaze flitted around his small apartment, settling on the photographs of his children. He thought of his own parenting, wondering if he was falling short. He felt a need to disappear, to vanish.

Emotion: self-conscious

Cluster: Embarrassment

PC1 (Valence): -1.03 Negative

PC2 (Disposition): 0.52

Role in Research

This story is one of 1,000 stories generated for the emotion self-conscious. During extraction, it was fed through Gemma4-31B and its hidden state activations were captured at 11 layers.

The mean activation across all 1,000 self-conscious stories, after denoising with neutral dialogue baselines, produces the self-conscious emotion vector -- a direction in the model's 5,376-dimensional representation space.

Logit Lens (Layer 40)

Tokens promoted/suppressed when the self-conscious vector is projected through the unembedding matrix.

Promoted:

`S`	0.307
`C`	0.298
`ness`	0.273
`尴尬`	0.263
`😶`	0.242

Suppressed:

`que`	-0.399
`de`	-0.266
`triumphant`	-0.266
`আনন্দের`	-0.247
`ايا`	-0.238