self-conscious - Story 126867 | Emotion Vectors in Gemma4-31B

Mr. Chen always felt like an imposter. The new school year was about to start, and he wondered if he was a good teacher, or if he was just pretending. He was always trying to measure up. He saw the doubt in the other teachers eyes and it felt like it was his own.

He reached his desk and saw it. A box. A large box.

He looked around. No one seemed to be watching him.

The packaging was elaborate, a mix of red and gold. He slowly, carefully, unwrapped the box.

Inside was a series of beautifully bound sketchbooks. Each sketchbook held intricate drawings and paintings. A note accompanied the gift. "Thank you for encouraging me to be myself," it read. Signed, "From Alex, the one who always doodled." He felt a surge of something he hadn't felt in a long time - Pride.

Emotion: self-conscious

Cluster: Embarrassment

PC1 (Valence): -1.03 Negative

PC2 (Disposition): 0.52

Role in Research

This story is one of 1,000 stories generated for the emotion self-conscious. During extraction, it was fed through Gemma4-31B and its hidden state activations were captured at 11 layers.

The mean activation across all 1,000 self-conscious stories, after denoising with neutral dialogue baselines, produces the self-conscious emotion vector -- a direction in the model's 5,376-dimensional representation space.

Logit Lens (Layer 40)

Tokens promoted/suppressed when the self-conscious vector is projected through the unembedding matrix.

Promoted:

`S`	0.307
`C`	0.298
`ness`	0.273
`尴尬`	0.263
`😶`	0.242

Suppressed:

`que`	-0.399
`de`	-0.266
`triumphant`	-0.266
`আনন্দের`	-0.247
`ايا`	-0.238