Maya avoided mirrors whenever possible. The disfigurement caused by her rare facial tumor made her a spectacle, a target for stares and whispers. Each day was a battle against the overwhelming sense of being on display. She kept her head down, avoiding eye contact.

She was at a specialist’s office. She sat in the waiting room, trying to make herself small and blend in. She picked at the chipped nail polish on her thumb.

A man, also waiting, quietly cleared his throat. He had a bandage on his cheek, a clear indicator of a similar procedure to what she was about to endure. He met her gaze, and offered a half-smile. “It’s…a lot, isn’t it?” he said, his voice hesitant.

Maya felt her composure start to unravel.

Emotion: self-conscious

Cluster: Embarrassment
PC1 (Valence): -1.03 Negative
PC2 (Disposition): 0.52

Role in Research

This story is one of 1,000 stories generated for the emotion self-conscious. During extraction, it was fed through Gemma4-31B and its hidden state activations were captured at 11 layers.

The mean activation across all 1,000 self-conscious stories, after denoising with neutral dialogue baselines, produces the self-conscious emotion vector -- a direction in the model's 5,376-dimensional representation space.

Logit Lens (Layer 40)

Tokens promoted/suppressed when the self-conscious vector is projected through the unembedding matrix.

Promoted:
S0.307
C0.298
ness0.273
尴尬0.263
😶0.242
Suppressed:
que-0.399
de-0.266
triumphant-0.266
আনন্দের-0.247
ايا-0.238