self-conscious - Story 126248 | Emotion Vectors in Gemma4-31B

The diagnosis was chilling: a rare genetic disorder, a condition that could change everything. It wasn’t hers. The records were mixed up. He spent hours on the phone, arranging corrected records and follow-up appointments, but the feeling lingered.

He began avoiding his reflection. He imagined the way his body moved, suddenly aware of every twitch, every slight imbalance. He saw the world differently, now seeing how others might view him.

His appetite vanished, replaced by a constant churn of anxiety. He replayed the doctor’s words in his head. His usual jovial greetings to neighbors felt forced, insincere.

Emotion: self-conscious

Cluster: Embarrassment

PC1 (Valence): -1.03 Negative

PC2 (Disposition): 0.52

Role in Research

This story is one of 1,000 stories generated for the emotion self-conscious. During extraction, it was fed through Gemma4-31B and its hidden state activations were captured at 11 layers.

The mean activation across all 1,000 self-conscious stories, after denoising with neutral dialogue baselines, produces the self-conscious emotion vector -- a direction in the model's 5,376-dimensional representation space.

Logit Lens (Layer 40)

Tokens promoted/suppressed when the self-conscious vector is projected through the unembedding matrix.

Promoted:

`S`	0.307
`C`	0.298
`ness`	0.273
`尴尬`	0.263
`😶`	0.242

Suppressed:

`que`	-0.399
`de`	-0.266
`triumphant`	-0.266
`আনন্দের`	-0.247
`ايا`	-0.238