self-conscious - Story 126463 | Emotion Vectors in Gemma4-31B

The dusty attic air clung to Clara’s skin, making her itch. She pulled her sweater tighter, suddenly aware of her rumpled jeans and the way her hair, unkempt from the morning’s chores, framed her face. Grandma Esther’s porcelain doll, its delicate face chipped and faded, felt strangely heavy in her arms. She dreaded the thought of facing her mother.

Clara imagined her mother’s disappointment, the unspoken judgment in her eyes. The doll was a symbol of their shared history, of a time when everything felt simpler. She wished she had never agreed to this meeting, wished she’d insisted on keeping it.

"Did you find it?" Her mother's voice, surprisingly calm, cut through her thoughts. Clara flinched. She didn't want to show her mother her reaction. "Yes," she whispered, turning away, the doll's vacant stare now mirrored in her own hollow gaze.

Emotion: self-conscious

Cluster: Embarrassment

PC1 (Valence): -1.03 Negative

PC2 (Disposition): 0.52

Role in Research

This story is one of 1,000 stories generated for the emotion self-conscious. During extraction, it was fed through Gemma4-31B and its hidden state activations were captured at 11 layers.

The mean activation across all 1,000 self-conscious stories, after denoising with neutral dialogue baselines, produces the self-conscious emotion vector -- a direction in the model's 5,376-dimensional representation space.

Logit Lens (Layer 40)

Tokens promoted/suppressed when the self-conscious vector is projected through the unembedding matrix.

Promoted:

`S`	0.307
`C`	0.298
`ness`	0.273
`尴尬`	0.263
`😶`	0.242

Suppressed:

`que`	-0.399
`de`	-0.266
`triumphant`	-0.266
`আনন্দের`	-0.247
`ايا`	-0.238