The crayon, clutched in little Lily’s chubby fist, was a vibrant green. It was, I noticed with a rising sense of unease, the precise shade of emerald that covered Bartholomew’s coat. Bartholomew, who I'd, at the age of six, insisted was a dapper gentleman fox. Now, Lily was drawing him, complete with monocle and tiny top hat, in a picture of a picnic, alongside a girl who looked suspiciously like *me*. I shifted uncomfortably on the small chair, my throat suddenly tight. This was not happening.

Lily chattered, her voice a cheerful melody. "And Bartholomew likes to drink tea, just like Aunt Sarah does!" She looked up at me, her eyes wide with innocent joy. I managed a weak smile, my stomach twisting. How could this be? It had been decades. Bartholomew had remained buried deep in the recesses of my childhood.

The illustration continued, Lily's hand moving with impressive speed. The picnic basket now contained an assortment of miniature sandwiches, each painstakingly rendered. I felt a prickle of sweat break out on my forehead. I needed a distraction, an escape. "That's… lovely, Lily," I stammered, my voice sounding strangely high-pitched. "Maybe… maybe we can go get some ice cream later?"

Emotion: mortified

Cluster: Embarrassment
PC1 (Valence): -1.36 Negative
PC2 (Disposition): 0.79

Role in Research

This story is one of 1,000 stories generated for the emotion mortified. During extraction, it was fed through Gemma4-31B and its hidden state activations were captured at 11 layers.

The mean activation across all 1,000 mortified stories, after denoising with neutral dialogue baselines, produces the mortified emotion vector -- a direction in the model's 5,376-dimensional representation space.

Logit Lens (Layer 40)

Tokens promoted/suppressed when the mortified vector is projected through the unembedding matrix.

Promoted:
l0.406
尴尬0.257
C0.252
worse0.245
0.242
Suppressed:
own-0.340
了他-0.218
他对-0.203
-0.194
楽し-0.193